Finally after working 6 days straight, i got a break.
All i want to do is rest.
I don't even feel like going out though Jac ask me out on friday.
Most probably depends if i am tired or not though i miss going out with my crazy members.
Well there's realy nothing to post.
Actually there is one thing.
My HOD Icel,i think she's gonna get fired.
Poor thing. Other HODs complain about her.
I was so sway being in that department, for 3 days straight i had to wrap the books in the carton.Nvm i get paid for wrapping books
There was like 30 ++ cartons and that's alot.
Luckily other people help me to wrap. But wasn't happy about it.
And my HOD was like MIA for a week.Just great.
When there is so much work to be done,she is gone.
Surprisingly she text me last night but i was watching movie with my dad at home.
She ask me about her schedule but i didn't see it.
Yesterday, my manager also ask me about her. And you know what, they wrote a report about her.BAD REPORT.
I was hoping maybe Eng Hua will be my HOD at least she is better.
But anyways,just see what will happen next.
Will update on my next day off.
But for now,i need to sleep!
Chiao.
Oh ya i will get my pay on 26 Nov,that's a long time.

Today finale jia hui talk to me.jia hui not my classmate it is the person working there.
She finally remembers my name so does the admin,who scolded me last time.
One of the part-time was an ass he don't want to help us do the returns and show it by his facial expression,i mean i don't even need your help it was the manager who told you to do.
If i knew i would have done it by myself.
Finish about 5-6 carton today and my legs are killing me.
Mae2 poor thing still haven't finish wrapping his album. confirm he'll get scolded from Mavis.
Well me, the manager just told me to wrap,well i mostly just enjoy wrapping cause noone really disturb me when i wrap except for customers.
Now i realised that the customers are so choosy want this want that,some more ask from different department,then if we don't know,they feedback to manager. that suck.
Well today the admin help me alot.i mean really alot.
cause for a week my HOD not around.lucky. Eng Hua not around.too bad i can't chat with her.She took quite a number of off days.
So left me and Fidah.Part-time like me.
I was thinking confirm we two die when Ecel come back cause the whole department will 100% be messy.
Oh ya about the admin person. She was like so nice then i actually know her at first.
Give me tips and help tell me what to do first.
She even say thank you to me so many times.Unbelieveable.
She help me take the street directory so i don't have to find myself.
Ok thats it, i still need to wake up early tmr, and still working till tuesday.
Hoping it soon be wednesday so i can rest.
Still don't understand why i took this job.but the manager is great. i kinda like her.
She talk to me very nicely and never scold me at all. Give me the most easiest job.
That is wrapping.Cause i am faster at wrappinf things than remembering things.
Cause i lazy remember all the books.
Haha goodnight.

Today was actually my off day. But i was called for replacement at 11+++
Then i go work at 1+pm reach there before 2pm.
I just reach there,i need serve customer.great.just great.
Then Maricel (Ecel) straight away come to me and tell me to put the promotion sticker to the books.
I went to the staff room to find the sticker but couldn't.At that point the manager told me to wrap the books, i said ok.
Then Ecel bring me to the manager(LPH) room to take the sticker. Then this is where it all happens:
LPH: Ecel what did you tell her to do?
Ecel: Oh i told her to paste the promotion sticker to the mystery book.
LPH: Is the promotion now no right
Ecel: No this start today.
Then it continues for a few minutes the manager scold her then...
LPH: Today i just wants her to warp the books outside in the carton. It is giving me headaces you know so many then block customers way.
Then fight again
Ecel: Ya but i just telling her to paste the promotion sticker to the books.
LPH: No i don't care i just want her to wrap and you display.
Then she told me this and touch my shoulder
LPH: You today don't listen to Ecel you listen to me ok
Then she told Ecel
LPH: I don't want you to disturb her today,because today she's mine. I'll give her the instructions you just do your job.
ME: Wow shocking. OK i said in my heart.
Then i and Ecel walk away going near the door.
Then it start again
LPH: I don't want you to tell her the promotion now. When the times come then you tell her. Now not important.
Then the fight continue and i just go and do my job.
Today was surprising. Never get scolded.Not even once.
Screw up twice.shit.
Firstly i drop a scissors and almost hit the manager leg.Die..
LPH:Girl becareful, what are you doing anyway??
Me: Sorry,sorry, i putting sensor.
LPH: Ohk. then she walked away.
I think that she thinks that i am a complete idiot.just great.
Bad impression.
Second time, the manager ask if this book is on promotion,i said no, then the check with ecel and it was like the best seller.die again. but surprisingly never get scolded again.
Today i guess i was lucky never get scolded at all everyone was so nice.
I wondered why.
It always happen to me
One moment people hates me.
The other minute they become so friendly and helpful.
Well anyways gotta go sleep tmr still need to work and i better don't screw up again.
Or else my head will be on the chopping board.
GOOd NIGht.
Thanks again manager you are the best.
Oh ya 4got one more thing.
Last week i forgot that sunday i work.So i told the manager...
Me: I'm sorry that sunday i didn't come i didn't know got schedule.Can i replace on other day
Surprising she says this.
LPH: OH nevermind no need replace,i just change your schedule, so i work on tmr,sunday and monday,off wednesday
And ya Saiful and gang were there and were teasing me
What a day.
Bon Voyage.

yesterday,i was in the kitchen with my dad eating mango.
Then suddenly my cat jump onto the ventilation above and it fell down just right beside me.
I was so lucky that thing was a few kg and if it hit my head, i think i have become a vegetation.
Because all my mother porcelain pots broke and she was piss off.
Lucky she can't scold my cat cause she is just a cat.haha.
my dad was angry too but didn't say anything.
Lucky,very lucky.

well today went home late.
Waited for Mae2 then i and him waited for Erwin who work at Swensen.
I finish my job at 9.45 but waited for Mae2 till 10 and chat with his supervisor,didn't bother about mine,then waited for Erwin at 10.15.
He look so nerd with the chef uniform and everything.
Then we went to Mac at first floor and talk about our jobs.
It was so funny,there were so many jokes involved.
Erwin wanted go home first and watch anime but we kept on extending the time.
then we talk and talk and laugh loudly like the whole mac owns to us.haha.
Then Erwin kept on looking at his watch and i and mae2 say that we haven't spend much time with each other so should take this opportunities and talk all we can since tmr me and mae2 off.
Erwin told us about his job. His job was easy but cannot work long hours.
At last we went home at 11.24pm.
It was fun we were planning to do that again sometimes if we 3 not working the next day

I never knew that working is so hard. And i am feeling down.
My brother came home today and ask me why i did not work today and i told him i'm off today. I also feel that somehow he know that i am feeling terrible. and he lie down on my bed and ask me what wrong.
I always like when he does that you know,lieing on my bed and start a conversation,your own brother so close to you whom understand you better than anyone else.
Then i told him was working this hard and i always get scolding from my HOD,and she suck.
He says " now then you know, if you don't study hard and get better education this is what you will always get because if you work part time those who working full time will always scold you for little wrong things you do".
Then i told him that we really need to conserve the money we have now because i just realised how hard it is to earn it.
Because my brother is those type that like to spend money on gaming stuff which is to me totally worthless. What can games help us with education huh.
But though he loves to play games,his studies is pretty much better than mine for his O level he got 13 points,hello that's quite good for someone who is NA.
Back to where we were talking about i guess my brother is great you know.
We used to fight all the time when we were young but now we look out for each other and always tell each other whats on our mind.
And pretty much we don't have any secrets with each other and always tell each other everything.
I always thought he was a nuisance but i guess i was wrong, he makes a great brother and i've always look up on him.
He ask me what am i going to do to with the money that i earn, i told him that i will most probably keep for my studies.
He has always encourage me to study hard so i can earn lots of money and has always persuade me to be a vet and i won't disappoint him.
I will study hard bro. You'll see i'll make you proud of me,
one day...

Well this question has been running through my mind. Every time i go to work,school i wondered why do i do these things???Well for education and for money simple reason but for what???I noticed everyday, people going to work and i wondered why they go?maybe:
1) for cash
2) to support themselves
3) to support their family
4) for leisure purposes
5) to buy their necessities needs
6) or for fun

It may be one of the reason above but i wonder is there any easy way i can get through my everyday life without any problems?? erm...i guess not.

Well life sucks at times,really it do. i know everyone has their own problems but how do they get through it,i know i can't. i don't know why i even work in the first place?. Now i understand why money is so important to people. Like for e.g. in US one person killed his whole family and himself because he went bankrupt. was it necessary?? erm.. maybe. i guess he doesn't want his family to suffer because he had gone bankrupt and no longer can support himself or them.

So back to my question,why do we do what we do?? i don't know and i no longer understand anymore. I was thinking is this the real world that my parents has long prevent me from experiencing?? A world of suffering, misery and mishap. Well i understand that the world we live in just has many ups and downs. And every paths that we took, we are always the one who really suffers. I admired people who can get through their everyday life whose days are numbered. I don't know how long i'll be in this world and i no longer know what i should do here.

I know that on my first blog i talk about how i live my life to the fullest but i can't,i cannot tell you how anymore cause i don't know myself. Was me being here on this Earth a mistake. Maybe it was my fate,it was my destiny or it was just meant to be. I can't do anything right in my life. I think there will not be any future for our generations, look at where we are now. So many problems we,our generations going to face,natural disasters, global warming and climate change and how long can Earth last??Not long enough for us.it may just last us for few years,not even 100 years so what's the point we do what we do?

Do what we do help us after we die??I know it doesn't and only praying does,so i guess after we die we still suffer for the wrong things we did on Earth. Oh god please show me the right path cause i just don't understand anymore why i live on Earth.... i just feel like giving up....

Sorry i didn't update the blog for a couple of days,been busy with life.lol. Well today, i had art club,just great,i thought no need come already after N level but i was wrong. Well i thought it was going to be boring but it was not,ok la a bit only.haha. Did batik painting again but luckily not like the last time one,this time is smaller.after that i did "engraving". new word to me too,it is like scratch card where you just scratch the lines given.stayed there from 12.30pm till 3.30pm.so sway i came 1/2 hour early then i had to do extra work,lol. but got some souvenir from ms Wee.hehe.i no shame ask her for things because she was doing spring cleaning so i told her whatever she don't want just give me. In the end i took home 3 package of modelling clay which worth more than $3, some wood don't know use for what,a frame which i beg her to give me one cause i don't want go IKEA and buy so she give me the one she no longer need thank god, the engraving thing which i was suppose to give back but i could keep it and 1 pack of plaster cloth. So i guess it was worth it coming to art got so many free stuff. I told kai ying just take whatever ms wee give since its free, Singaporeans what is always like that,free stuff MUST take but no free leave it there.So afterwards i went to greenridge with ky and her cousin to the kfc to eat since her cousin was hungry. OH YA 4got i thing, that i won a consolation prize for the prom contest which i and xue yao entered.Wow at least it is better than nothing.Then afterwards i went home and change to my jeans cause i needed to go to a meeting at city hall for my business job and it start at 7pm but in the end i didn't go cause i was with my good friend Nabila from the express class. I taught her science but told her that i can only teach her whatever i know about science cause i am not taking O lvl. So i taught i her whatever i knew and we catch up on stuff since it has been a long time since we actually meet and sit down and talk. I remember the last time i met with her was last year because of something had happen in the school.after that we haven't been meeting each other since i was busy with my N lvl and she with her O. She told me all about what she planning to do after O and everything and i never even notice that the time pass so fast. We were on the opp. of my block where we sat and learn from 4pm to 7pm. then we decide to go to mac since she wanted to eat then we went there from 7pm till 9pm and she treat me mac burger thanks Nabs.whoa the time fly so fast when you are with your friends. In the end i taught her not only sci but english too,help her correct her tenses a bit and told her try her best to use flashback method which my fav teacher always tells us. Pretty much i told her to finish her chemistry O lvl by today so that at least it can help her a bit on her chem exam.And sorry Jac i forgot about you guys taking the practical exam tmr. and thanks everyone for wishing me luck on my job tmr hopefully i don't quit after my first day.haha.like what i did for my mac job that pisses somebody.So good luck everyone who is taking the O lvl practical exam. Hope all get at least an A or i will haunt you guys 4ever.lol. well best wishes from me!

HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT HE LOVE YOU??
HOW DO YOU SHOW THAT YOU LOVE HIM??
HOW DO YOU SHOW THAT YOU REALLY,REALLY ,TRULY LOVE HIM?
It is not enough to take the one you love for granted.
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
" How do i know he loves me?"
"How do i know he's mine?"

Well does he:
-leave a little note to tell you are on his mind??
- send you yellow flower when the sky is grey
- take you out dancing just so he can hold you close?
-dedicate a song with words just for you?

He will find new ways to show you a little bit everyday
thats how you know,thats how you know he's your love.

GUYS:
You got to show her that you need her
don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...

FINALLY 'N' is over! I am so happy.I guess the papers was okay not so difficult as i thought. so we decided to go and celebrate the end of our N level. Actually got alot people was invited but in the end only left jac,kai ying and su mui. the rest could not make it due to some reasons. We went to bugis to eat seoul garden and we ate like barbaric. we tried almost all the food that was there. Anyway after that we went to bugis street so that i could get a new pair of slippers because my shoe was KILLING me! oh ya it was a bit of me and jac unlucky day,jac shoe spoil after walking A FEW,i MEAN A FEW metres a way.poor thing. she had to go back and change a new one.haha. it was fun we went everywhere there and as usual i was the one who spent the most. i bought a shoe,belt,watch and a 3 quarter pant, and the funny thing is that i buy this things i straight away wear.lol.but i didn't wear the belt.then kai ying bought a shirt worth of $10.the trip to bugis was great since i also promise su mui that i would spent time with her before she go to ITE.sad,sad. but best of luck to her.after that we went far east plaza to walk2. we saw nice bikini.lol. then we round the far east plaza don't know searching for what. after that we decided to go home.thats was it for the day for me. It was great and i enjoyed myself!hope to spent more time with all my friends. that is one of my goals.

Just now was my math paper and geog paper. maths was DAMN EASY. i just don't know how to do 1 qn it was the ''kite'' thing,ask me this question as if i know??lol. Well after that i went home with jac and accompany her to greenrigde to buy food,then we went home.REGRETED!!! Our place there was under renovation and was so noisy! Can't study at all. Poor thing Jac had to take the stair,haha must exercise a bit luckily i live on the 3rd storey so not tired but she lived 2 storey above me.lol. Ok I did study for that 2 hours without any problem,i also ate and took a bath cause it was hot.Oh ya Kai Ying also called me. And she was like panicking. I told her not to panic, just read the geog thing like a story book. That is what i did when i last minute study as in like now. haha. i guess i studied too much until i just don't even want to look at the book anymore.Then before i went out, i sang "go with flow,go where ever it takes you,there's nothing to worry about" Ok maybe you don't know how the song sound like,it was like the whole building was going to collapse.hehe..ok my singing is that bad.Afterwards i met Jac below my block as usual since she just live on top of me.Ok that doesn't sound right but you understand. We met kai Ying afterwards at the traffic lights and went to school together as normal. Our geog paper was at 2pm and we reach a bit earlier i think,doesn't matter. Man, the paper was not as easy as i thought it was gonna be but i still completed it in time.Well many says it was difficult but i find it was about our standard. After that we went home,Kai Ying went the other direction while Zhi Yun go with her bf,so left me and Jac. And we went Greenridge. We round the whole Shop and Save and still couldn't figure out what to buy,i don't know how long we were there but it was fun,i get to talk to Jac(sis) longer!.Then we went bubble tea to get a drink but my honeydew sago not there!sad...nvm then we went 7eleven and i bought some bread and Jac was having trouble to find the drink that she wanted. Then went to the shop opp. and i bought a drink, cause more cheaper. Then i went with her and go home. And a grp of "people" says hi to me.wierd...i thought they don't like me.after an accident happen a few months ago they suddenly become so friendly to me. don't know why but anyways if they talk to me i can't ignore them right so i responded.I guess that they think i'm not so bad after all???erm...dunno...don't really care anymore....Btw left POA PAPER ONLY! SO I"M HAPPY!

Sorry i didn't post on the actual hari raya,i was too tired since i reach home late last night. Well i told you on the other post that my family will cry on the first day and they did. When i saw my mum ask forgiveness from my dad,my heart ached as i watched them hugging each other and forgiving each other.I saw that they somehow still love each other despite of all the fighting. I guess this is the one day a year that remind them, even if they did a lot of wrong things in life,their partner will always forgive them and they will start a fresh after this day. I guess this day,is the day that showed them why they are still together and why they must be together forever. OK off will all these things,Hari Raya was great i guess,ok it was fun but not as fun as last year though,most of my Malaysia cousins did not even turn up at my grandmother house, instead they gave lame accuse,saying that they did not have a passport. HELLO you know hari raya is coming up and you should have made the passport earlier. Well i could see that my grandmother was sad but not because they did not came, it was because it's the first time we celebrated hari raya without my grandfather.sad...i guess my grandmother really misses my grandpa.We did not even took a photo on my father side because my grandfather is no longer in the picture. Ok lets skip all the sad part..well we ate and relax at my grandmother place.ok i was angry that i miss my Dr. Dolittle 3 show.aargh..wanted to watch that show but miss it. ok off we go to my grandmother house,my mother side. We reached there about 6pm and my cousins as usual an hour late.2nd time.aargh..made me wait so long for them to arrive...oh shit must remember forgive and forget...ok fine i forgive them for being late...ok there we ate again,die fats!! i just lost some weight and now gaining all back,just great!.But i guess hari raya is fun,get lots of money!haha..just 2 houses and i got more than $100+,no need work already.lol. ok i guess thats it.well i still haven study for my math and geog hopefully the questions come out are easy.will update on the exams papers tomorrow.Au revoir! means goodbye.

I can't wait,just a few more hours to Hari Raya!. Well firstly i would like to ask forgiveness from all my friends,chinese and malay, for any mistakes or wrong words that i had said. Sorry and i hope you can forgive me. Well i gotta clean my room,it is in a mess, all my worksheets are just lying on the floor and books here and there. Man, i too hate first day of Raya,cause my whole family will sure 100% cry during the time when we are going to ask for forgiveness.ok gotta go,my malay friends do enjoy hari raya and who doesn't anyway?and my chinese friends do spend the extra 1 day to study for geog and math.i've just realise geog got so many things to remember and i sure DIE haven't even started on geog,maybe i start the day after raya.See ya.