It was 30 degree Celsius today, the sky was cloudless blue. I woke up early in the morning and went to Sheng Shiong with my parents. Bought some necessities and food for the day. I went home just in time to go out to ky house. Ate a lot at her house and even got red packet from her mom.

Then me,jac and ky went to popular at Bukit Panjang to visit our colleagues and I bought milk tea for my department. I even got red packet from my department(so good). Bought the new moon book and eclipse which she let me to have first. Other customers reserved the rest. Stayed there for quite some time to chat. Then we walked around there for a while afterwards there was nothing else to see so we all went home.

At home, I started back on my reading. Read it till it was 7 plus. Now I am going start on my homeworks and revision on my other weaker subjects.

Sorry i did not update my blog for quite some time, i was busy. Just got back from Batam a few days ago and it was terrible. Will give you more details during the weekends when i am free. But anyway, today was a very interesting lesson. To start off with was our Chemistry lesson during our first period. We gotten a chance to do some experiment(at last after 3 years) on the chemical reaction stuff.Well first more than half the class got almost all the answers wrong,haha even me. We thought that we were suppose to identify the unknown solution but wasn't it instead the solution which we suppose to identify was the ones at the side of our tables.Ok after that it was english,1 period only,hmm... i realise i have not even write a single thing about our new relief teacher though our former one ask us too. Well she's not bad, i did learn something when she was here.i understand better now on how i am suppose to express the thoughts and feelings in the composition but the most part that i hated was presenting, it was humiliating.I was so nervous that i stumble on the words as i red. Today we listen to a meaningful song from kelly clarkson on the title because of you, which nicholas sent in,so weird a guy sent that song. Anyway Natalie let us listen to the song and told us that there are alot of good phrases that are found in songs which we can also use to write in our composition. It expresses the thoughts and the feelings which is a good thing, so today pretty much i am going to spend some time to listen to songs and write good phrases down.MUST get A1. After that it was recess and i was so addicted to my twilight book, can't stop reading it. Then it was POA,BORING. Die, if mrs goh found out i said that,too bad i already wrote it down.As usually she forgotten to bring back our test papers again,purposely again,lol. It was because of some people did not take the test that is why she was unable to bring the papers back to return to us. Then it was Physic, we were all looking forward to it,everyone was like ''quick 5 more mins to phy'', then mrs goh ask who was our physic teacher, i think she felt hurt that we like Mrs Oh lesson instead of hers. OK blah,blah,blah. When our physic teacher arrived,we were damn noisy,she was like so angry but afterwards cool down. I can't help it but stare at here beautiful shiny golden highlighted hair,her nice concave haircut and her stunning body(i'm so embrassed saying this),but she is so gorgeous too,like some other teachers in our school. I guess i am honoured to be her physic rap though i am such a lousy one,haha hardly help her in anything but she always give me double sweets than the rest that's what i like alot. I guess she is fun to talk to and my classmates like her so much, she still treat us like kids but in the good way that everytime we point out the mistakes that the others make she will give us sweets. It was so funny just now cause she was demonstrating the intermolecular thing and ask saiful,zuhairi and xue yao to come up. Then they have to 'hentak kaki' meaning stamp their feet, and it looked so wrong.It was so funny that tears started to drip from my eyes and my whole face turn red.Then after physic was another BORING lesson. It was MT.never like the lesson since i was a kid,cause i don't learn anything and all the teachers aren't like my english-related subjects where the teachers are able to joke around and help students and even try to understand them. But i felt it was only MT that i don't feel that way.I don't feel invited so i have never like the lesson.Erm better not talk terrible things about her or to the blue room i go. Well MT lesson per usual, don't learn a single darn thing, and she called my name to stand up and read,i was like what the hell.why me, aren't there someone else in the class good at reading,who don't mind volunteering themselves.I was so piss off that,straight after MT i just quickly get out off the room anyway i always do that, i am always the first one to leave the room.Then i went to the toilet for a while and came out from there,some boys from N3 were like cat calling me and i was like"hello i am not interested and am disgusted by you" but i said it in my heart. And i heard they say i was like so action or something but i don't care, and i hate guys behaving so childish,already sec 5 behaving like this,this childish like behaviour is not in my vocabulary and will never will. Ok back to the last lesson of the day,it was GEOG. Geog is fun but there is nothing else to learn, done with the syllabus already. Then Mdm Howe talk about her japanese breed dog,Kanzo (wrong spelling i think) it was so sad that it died. I never knew that she was a dog lover. We talk about her dog was because of the trees that we were studying the christmas trees which has the needle like leaves, and her dog ate it.After geog,we,jac,ky and zul took a break at the canteen, and we had lunch. My food was disgusting, i am sick of the food that is provided by our school because it is the same thing since i started schooling here and i was sick of it that is why i bring my own food. Then we studied at our usual place that was near the bookshop area. Many teachers know that that was the place where we always sits. Then we saw Mrs John, the full time counsellor and she was going home, she always will leave her bag with us to sign out in the general office,but today after she sign out, she was going to pick her bag and said "since you guys has been good to me i am going to give you something" at first i thought it was just sweets which teachers always give us but it was not, i was so shocked that she took out an EXPENSIVE chocolate, which named was Lindt and every teacher that walked past noticed it.I was so grateful to Mrs John as i never expected anything in return.I still got picture of it as an evidence. Ya so anyway, throughout the whole time at the study group, we were talking,mostly chit chatting.But it was still related to out subjects,we were talking about s.s at first on the SBQ questions. Then suddenly change to different topic, we started to talk about the good phrases found in story book. I even recommended Mrs Goh certain books such as the notebook, a walk to remember by nicholas sparks, and Zul recommended Jodi Picolt, because she saw us reading the twilight book which she herself was into it.Then we offered her some chocolates but she didn't want some,she was so afarid of carbs.Aiyo, it is just fats. Then we were talking about certain stuffs that only mature people talk about and Zul and i had a hard time explain certain stuff to jac and ky.But we had fun,well i had fun mostly.Ok then at 5 plus we went home and i went with my mom to the fajar shopping centre, shop for a while then go home. Then i started on rewriting my notes which i had copied earlier on and now i am tying this blog, it took me about 1 hour to finish,whoa so long. Ok gotta go, i want to get ready things for my cat's bdae.It is going to be a surprise, her bdae is tml. so i still got so many things to prepare.Bon Voyage( Sorry i did not check my spelling error since i type so long and lazy to check for any)

Well my cat's birthday is coming up soon. I don't even know what i should buy for her. To some people she is just a stray cat with black and white spot and patches of tabby but to me she is like my sister and part of my family although we got her from her mother which is a stray. Though i realise we have not given her much,,she had never ask for anything.I guess cats are understanding, they don't care if their owners are rich or poor,all they ever ask for is comfort, shelter and LOVE. I owe that to my cat,May, the only cat that i will ever have. We don't realise things until they are gone. How they serve us the purpose, the reason of which we ourselves don't get.The days that i had ignored her and concentrating on my games and watching new movies, the time i was lazy to even pick up her poo because i just wanted to lie on my bed or even at cold dreadful nights her tiny body and soft fur shivered and i did not even share my large thick blanket with her. Now i have change i know that it was my wrong doing not hers and never did she once blame it on me. She would always come back to me to give me some love by rubbing her head by the side of my legs. She even slept with me on my bed at night and kept me company so that i would never be alone. Never once she missed to wake me up in the morning for school. I appreciate all that she has done,how i wish i know how to repay her.How i hoped she would just live forever and gone at the same time as we do.

I know everyone has their own problems
But they have to know how to handle it
they have to be strong
i was once fragile but not anymore
i learn to be tough. i no longer being take advantage of.
But i fear for someone, someone whom i care for as a friend
I hope you read this
I hope you make the right decision
Whatever we talk about is kept
No worries, you can always look out for me if you in need
I know you, you can be better
You just need time to solve it
You don't have to be stress because of IT cause i was once like you
I even wanted to commit suicide
But i didn't
Because i knew that people around me still cares
So does your parents
Though you don't get them sometimes you can always look out for ur gf
She may understand
if not i am always around,ALWAYS
Don't worry so much as you still have friends supporting you through whatever decision you make.
Whatever decision that you make i will respect it no matter what
All the best to you!Hope you get well soon

why can't she understand me. I am a human being too, i have feelings like any other. She did not have to lie to me just to make me follow where she wanted me to go. But then i can never be angry with her for so long as i knew that she is who she is. I guess she just wants my company but she don't know the way to do it. Though i always let it pass, i still love her and will always do.

Today english lesson was fun! Mr Wee is great, he is such a funny teacher and with lots of jokes to entertain us. Anyways he says that having a blog is a good thing but it only benefit us if we use proper english when typing so, i am trying that now and hopefully that i could type good english and score A for english?? haha by the way, i will try to update more often though. and pretty much tell my story as a first account person. well happy reading!

It has only been for a week and i already feeling the stress. My homeworks are piling up and i have been having troubles coping with it.what am i suppose to do? No matter what i have to catch up, i refuse to be left behind! I have to get my name on the banner no matter what. But i can't even cope now what about in a few months time??Haiz even my members are feeling the tension. The only way now is to support each other.There is nothing else we can do.

My anger starts to get the grip of me.why i thought for a moment, one am i this way.why can't i be like any other. is this my vengeance?.i feel so frail and worthless. Things also start to swirl in my head. My mind keeps wandering around. My life are hopeless but somehow somewhere,there a light in every path, a glow which can solve my struggle. My associates is all i require, they are the ones that i could always look for when im feeling dishearten. I know that i can count on them for eternity.They will at all times remain here in my heart.