My head keep on spinning throughout this whole week. Though i look fine from the outside but from the inside it hurts. What do i keep thinking about?why does it hurt this much? There are millions of electrons flowing in my small brain which made me can't think straight. Yes i admit i have mood swing nowadays cause of my hurting head so don't get offended if i am sort of rude or just can't be bothered. I'm sorry. I just can't take this head ace,it is like it cannot be cure with all the piling homeworks, the stress life i'm living and keep thinking things. All these confuses me. I don't know what will happen,why i am trying so hard to be top.Somehow it doesn't matter to me anymore but a part of me can't let it go.

I want to be perfect, perfect,perfect but no matter how hard i try i will never succeed.Aargh...I hate myself when i am like this, i just couldn't think straight.Why is life miserable?that is what my crazy member always says. I don't know i guess i agree with her.

I want to do lots of things but i feel so weak,lousy and useless. Though i know i could always share my burden with my members, there are just certain things i just can't describe it in words.How??? I am so ashamed of myself with things i had done. The nighmare keeps haunting me. My head won't stop circling me.

I have my friends, i know they are there forever,my family who always be there for me sometimes and my teachers who who comfort me. So why do i feel this way?i dont' know.

Do i need a change maybe? do i need a bf to get me through all this??maybe not i can always live without one so long i have my mates. So why does my head still hurt so much.

It is slowing my learning progress, i'm afraid if i ever fall behind of class,and i am those type who just don't like to ask for help even though i need help so badly.

I just want to find that one thing. Something which will stop all these pain. I am not writing this blog so i could get some sense of pity, i am just expressing my emotions, my feeling to the rest.who may or may not experience it before me.

I just want to be........

ME