I seen the Jack Neo first english drama which is called happily ever after. It involved two married couples. It shows what are the things you go through when you are married and the problems you will face during those times.

I guess, for me personally. I don't believe in happily ever after as there is no such thing. This benefits can only happen to the lucky few. I always hoped that one day, I will meet my "prince charming" and be happy. The only thing I ever wanted is just to be happy and even though we face difficulties in life I know that I can always count on him.

But what if I was the problem?? If I were the cause of the unhappiness? I can't do this, I can't make him happy? I don't want him to regret later on in his life if he were ever to marry me. I guess I just not ready to be with someone as I broke too many hearts. I just don't have the strength to carry on like this. Maybe I won't even find that someone, that someone who understands me. Who doesn't judge me and also whom can forgive me for all the wrong things I did in the past.

Where do I find this someone? Maybe I won't even find one. Or maybe he is just in front of me. But I will leave it up to faith to find my true love, Like what my mum says love is a bet, you either win it or lose it. I mum took that bet and now she regretted it in someways. She loved another guy when she was younger but faith brought my mum and dad together and that is how they end up together in the end. But the part of the blame is because of him.

I don't want to be miserable in the end. I want to live happily ever after. But will that ever be possible? That is what I always question myself. Maybe...I don't know..I'm confused..