How could you be so heartless?
Not thinking about our feeling
Though as much as we want
To have our way
But we dont want to be
just like you
You have to remember
We are the one whom you are left with
No one to be there
anymore
How could you do this
to us
again
I dont
get it
ooh anymore
Just forget it
And go find him
Cause we are not going to be there.
Heartless
Heartless
Heartless
Everytime I see you, it makes my heart hurts so badly that I just cant hold my emotional. I cannot see your face and not holding my tears back. That is why everyday I avoid you, it was not your fault. I just cannot see you. Everytime I do, it hurts you badly as well. I tried to stand up, I tried to defend you but I could not. I am just too weak, too afarid. Was it my fault? Though I tried to be on my best behaviour during your lesson but it was not enough.
As the day passes by, the smile, laughter and happiness just disappear from your face. I just wish you were who you were back then so happy and cheerful and always teasing around. But that side of you vanished and I feel like it was my fault.
So please don't think of me avoiding you is because I don't like you anymore. I still do. You are the best ever that happened to my life. I just cannot bear to look at your expressions. So sad, so angry and feeling so helpless. Please know that I would always be there to cheer you up but now I just could not because I don't how to make you happy like whom you use to be.
I hope your father in law gets well soon. You already have so much things to handle. But all we do is complaint. We never appreciate you for all that you have done. You tried to make everyone satisfied but it just backfires at you. I'm sorry. Please know that I did appreciate you very much from the beginning that is why I am just too lazy to make anymore suggestions as it is just not the best idea anymore.
I get so angry nowadays for no reasons. is it because of hormones kicking in?? Or the hot and humid weather? Or maybe the stresses that I finally felt. That was one thing I am sure about.
The class, the homeworks, the presentation and other compiled work that just really making me mad. Haiz. Finally listening comprehension are coming soon. Can forget about mt classes after this and also trying to get rid of my nerve for tmr presentation. Really waste of time...
I can't believe I watch HP and the half-blood prince without watching HP and the order of the phoenix. No wonder I don't get it. Lol. Ok now I finally understand the show but too bad they seriously miss out lots of details in the movie. Well I cant always expect great shows can I? Ya must watch the right movies. lol.
Anyway, time seems to fly by pass me in a blink of an eye. Though I tried my best to manage my time well, I still get left behind. Even my english grades are going down and my math going up. What is the matter with me? One subject goes up, the other down. Seriously gotta balance it well.
Well I still think that there was no point taking O. Opps this was what I had been thinking since coming back to Zhenghua again. It has always been. But anyway, it was my last lap, and no other choice. I chose to do this with no help what so ever and I got to do it well. Or else I am such a disgrace to them. So I always tell myself...
No choice. Life is unfair. Make it your best. Enjoy it while you can.
Someone told me to update. He was so bored cause no one updated here except for him. Lol. Zuhairi here you go, an update from me.
Nothing much, just that the mt oral finally over. Thank god. At least no need worry anymore just left listening comprehension.
I wished I had a time capsule - a container that is filled with objects from a particular time, so that people in the future will know what life was like then. If only I could go back, maybe a few years back to fix things so that maybe I would not have so many problems now.
Well what to do? I'm already in the year 2009 and getting older everyday. There is no point looking back, looking back at all the memories of my past. But maybe, just maybe... i could for once?
