Everytime I see you, it makes my heart hurts so badly that I just cant hold my emotional. I cannot see your face and not holding my tears back. That is why everyday I avoid you, it was not your fault. I just cannot see you. Everytime I do, it hurts you badly as well. I tried to stand up, I tried to defend you but I could not. I am just too weak, too afarid. Was it my fault? Though I tried to be on my best behaviour during your lesson but it was not enough.

As the day passes by, the smile, laughter and happiness just disappear from your face. I just wish you were who you were back then so happy and cheerful and always teasing around. But that side of you vanished and I feel like it was my fault.

So please don't think of me avoiding you is because I don't like you anymore. I still do. You are the best ever that happened to my life. I just cannot bear to look at your expressions. So sad, so angry and feeling so helpless. Please know that I would always be there to cheer you up but now I just could not because I don't how to make you happy like whom you use to be.

I hope your father in law gets well soon. You already have so much things to handle. But all we do is complaint. We never appreciate you for all that you have done. You tried to make everyone satisfied but it just backfires at you. I'm sorry. Please know that I did appreciate you very much from the beginning that is why I am just too lazy to make anymore suggestions as it is just not the best idea anymore.