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    ♥ special day coming
    Friday, August 28, 2009 -{'Friday, August 28, 2009
    Since teachers' day is coming soon. I thought maybe I should post what qualities teachers have. That I wished I will develop in the near future.

    Positive - Thinks positively and enthusiastically about people and what they are capable of becoming. Sees the good in any situation and can move forward to make the most of difficult situations when confronted with obstacles. Encourages others to also be positive.

    Communicative - Shares with others in a manner that encourages effective two-way communication. Communicates personal thoughts and feelings on a wide spectrum of issues and can listen to students in an empathetic manner, assuring each that conversations will be held in confidence.

    Dependable - Honest and authentic in working with others. Consistently lives up to commitments to students and others. Works with them in an open, honest, and forthright manner.

    Personable - Establishes and maintains positive mutual working relationships. Likes to be with others. Has many ways of getting to know students as persons while building trust and appreciation through personal interaction and involvement.

    Organized - Makes efficient use of time and moves in a planned and systematic direction. Knows where he or she is heading and is able to help students in their own organization and planning. Can think in terms of how organization can be beneficial to those served.

    Committed - Demonstrates commitment to students and the profession and is self-confident, poised and personally in control of situations. Has a healthy self-image. Encourages students to look at themselves in a positive manner, careful to honor the self-respect of the students, while encouraging them to develop a positive self-concept.

    Motivational - Enthusiastic with standards and expectations for students and self. Understands the intrinsic motivations of individuals, and knows what it is that motivates students. Takes action in constructive ways.

    Compassionate - Caring, empathetic and able to respond to people at a feeling level. Open with personal thoughts and feelings, encouraging others to do likewise. Knows and understands the feelings of students.

    Flexible - Willing to alter plans and directions in a manner which assists people in moving toward their goals. Seeks to reason out situations with students and staff in a manner that allows all people to move forward in a positive direction.

    Individually Perceptive - Sees each student as a unique and valuable individual. Looks for the differences among students. Quickly diagnoses student difficulties and assists in the management of individual situations.

    Value Based - Focuses upon the worth and dignity of human beings. Is sensitive to community values. Strives to work in an environment consistent with his or her belief system. Recognizes the importance and power of modeling constructive behavior.

    Knowledgeable - Is in a constant quest for knowledge. Keeps up in his or her specialty areas, and has the insight to integrate new knowledge. Takes knowledge and translates it to students in a way which is comprehensible to them, yet retains its originality.

    Creative - Versatile, innovative, and open to new ideas. Strives to incorporate techniques and activities that enable students to have unique and meaningful new growth experiences.

    Patient - Is deliberate in coming to conclusions. Strives to look at all aspects of the situation and remains highly fair and objective under most difficult circumstances. Believes that problems can be resolved if enough input and attention is given by people who are affected.

    Sense of Humor - Knows how to take the tension out of tight situations. Uses humor, spontaneously, in a tasteful manner. Builds togetherness in the classroom, through the use of humor.


    Those in italic are the qualities I think that are important in teachers. Without it, no respect gain, no knowledge can be learn. I would like to say Mr Wee is one of the example that have all the qualities stated here. He is the teacher that I find most passionate in his teaching, have great sense of humour and also very patient. Happy teacher's day Mr Wee! You are the best English cher any students can get. And I mean it.


    ♥ my results
    Saturday, August 22, 2009 -{'Saturday, August 22, 2009
    I told my mum about my results today. Not that I wanted to but she asked might as well just tell her. She ask what did I get then I said some fail. Then she was like your brother never fail before. Then I was like thats him, Im me. Then she asked what subject do I think I fail. Confirm Math. Then she was like I thought your math must be as good as your brother. Then I was like how can if my that one no good. Then she ask my malay confirm fail right. Then I said no I got C6. Then she as like wow you pass. All the people around me the reaction is the same.lol. Then I told here this one is my O level result and I ask whether I should retake or not. Then she say up to me but she say no since I got other subjects to concentrate on and she scare later I take again I will fail. So now my final decision is....

    Dont retake!

    ♥ Amrit's 2nd poem
    Friday, August 21, 2009 -{'Friday, August 21, 2009
    You are like sunshine so warm,
    You are like sugar so sweet
    You are like you
    and that's the reason why I like you

    --> It was the reason why our friendship was so strong


    Hey Amrit, I receive msg from that freak again. He have not known that you had passed away and I think it is best that I dont tell him. He threaten to find us tmr and chop you if you interfere but how?? You are no longer here and he is insane. Why arent you here to help me, to protect me?? You were always there when I need you no matter how busy you were, you would drop everything down and came to my rescue. No other guy would do that for me. Only you. I wished you were here to help. My life is so empty without you, now Nara is like replacing you becoming the second Amrit, he doesnt want me to be miserable now that your passing have gone. Now he wants to be there for me like you did for me. But it would not be the same. I just wished he went back boys home and never come back. If he just drop dead one day also its not my problem but how could it happened to you instead of him?? Life is so unfair. Good people dies earlier why the bad people lives longer. How can this world be at peace at this rate??? Now I questioning myself.

    ♥ Reveal shocking news
    Wednesday, August 19, 2009 -{'Wednesday, August 19, 2009
    I just finished msn with Nara (my friend and Amrik's bestfriend)
    Amrik was born with abnormal veins in his head but Amrik did not tell me. He did not want me to be worried about him that's why. But it is worse to find out from your friend that you are actually suffering. I could have been there for you.

    Secondly, Nara was like why didn't you came to his funeral. I was like I did but I miss the bus by 1 min because Aliffah and I got huge timing difference and she didnt run. Ya thats y. I so regretted for not being there for you. Nara says that I could have written notes and put in his pocket. I was like really. I should have written something, something about him that I admire.

    Thirdly, I also heard it from Nara himself. Amrik's love for me have not change. I should have notice but I did not and I guess it was really too late. He love me but because I said maybe I love someone else, he just said that he love me as my best girl friend. He even gave us his blessing. haha. Nara wrote,"He loves you, he really loves you alot" That made me cry.again. Then Nara said that he would always disturb him saying that,'I and sharizah lah' then Amrik would reply, "No!, sharizah is mine" Haha he was always such a joker to me. I never knew he would kept so much from me just for me to be happy, for me to have what I want.

    I lost a friend, my personal haven, my big brother and my loved one that day. I know I should have gotten over it by now. But no one know what he really meant to me. He was more than a friend, more than a relative, he was more than anyone can imagine and when I do not talk about him, I would think that I would have forgotten about him but I do not want that. Thats why I would always write about him no matter where he is now so as I would never forget him and that he would always be remembered in my heart, memory and dreams.

    ♥ Amrit's 1st poem
    -{'Wednesday, August 19, 2009
    You must be a good runner because you are
    always running in my mind, you must be a good thief because you have
    stolen my heart, and I am always a bad shooter
    because I Miss You Always...


    --> This was when we first meet again after 8 years.



    This is the third day without Amrit and I started to miss him already. All his annoying messages that he used to send because of his nothingness, concern and curiousness which I always reply back. Today I got back my mt result. I was so glad that I passed!! Though it is C6. I am darn happy. My MT teachers were too. Too bad I cannot share this with you, Amrit. You would have congrats me and we would have already gone to Swesens to eat or something- Your treat (you promise. hehe). Anyway she also became so nice today out of the blue. I think she was glad that she no longer need to teach student like me anymore. Haha just kidding. Anyway I kept on reading your last words during lesson time and you are right, I would just fill it with remembered joy - joy that I had spent time with you. And sorry that I miss your bus yesterday, cause Aliffah your bestfriend didnt walk fast enough. haha. Fatin sends her regards. Though all this typing you cannot see. But I know that you will.

    ♥ This was the last thing that he left before hes gone
    Tuesday, August 18, 2009 -{'Tuesday, August 18, 2009

    Don't grieve for me,
    for now I'm free
    I'm following the path
    God laid for me.
    I took His hand when
    I heard His call
    I turned my back and left it all.
    I could not stay another day......,
    to laugh, to love, to work or pray.
    Tasks left undone
    must stay that way,
    I found that peace at
    the close of day.
    If my parting has left a void,
    Then fill it with remembered joy.
    Perhaps my time has
    seemed all too brief,
    Don't lenghten it now
    with undue grief.
    Lift up your hearts,
    and share with me
    God wanted me now,
    He set me Free.

    ♥ Life is so precious
    Monday, August 17, 2009 -{'Monday, August 17, 2009

    I got a msg from his uncle this morning saying that Amrit Singh Riar had just passed away. I could not believe it. I did not believe that he was gone I thought it was just a terrible joke. I got Ky to call his uncle to find out. The uncle says that he collapse and the veins in his brain burst. I could not stop crying afterwards...Now my tears still could not stop flowing...

    He was my tanglin primary school classmate and we met in primary one and became best friends ever since. He would do anything for me just to keep me save from a freako. He even confess his love to me and I took it like it was a joke. But this year when I found him again in friendster he confess that he love me but now as my best girl friend. Haha. I know he would not like to see me crying when he was alive so I think it is best I control my tears for him. But his sudden death just stunned me.

    He was always there when I need him even this year when I reunite with him in friendster. We spend that one month June holiday to get to know each other. How we change and everything else. We planned so much and this much could no longer be achieve.

    He was there when I cry because I did badly for my exams, he was there when I quarrel with my parents, he was there when I wished that I rather not be "here",he was there when I feel so sorry for myself, he was there when I needed someone, he was there to protect me from that freako, he was there to listen to me instead of me listening to him. He was there for me for everything. No guy friend could ever be as great as him and we never once quarrel and he is the only one who protected me from all the choatic things that happened in my life. He was the only one that I feel save to be with.

    We planned so much. He wanted to go Canada to study after finishing his ITE course. He wanted to treat me out to whatever place I wanted to go cause he lost to a bet about "how well do you know me?," He was going to get me a gift from Canada especially for me for being his best girl friend. And we even planned to meet this friday to catch up on things. He was so excited and nervous as it has been 8 years since we last met and now I could not even see him for the last time. He even promise to pick me up during teachers day and we go together. I know he is a tough guy, friendly and great when you get to know him well enough.

    I was the last person he msg and I didnt reply him. I feel so darn stupid! Because he asked what I was doing and I replied playing the piano and then he replied saying "Hahaha...Really? Cool!" That was the last msg that he send at 11pm and I did not reply.. Why?? Why I so stupid not to have reply, maybe if I did he would have talk to me longer and he wouldnt have collapse and burst his veins in the brain and he would have been alive today - Chatting and messaging me. Its all my fault.

    Though I have kept all your messages that makes me laugh, cheerful and happy and I will post them one by one this whole week just to remember you. Hope that you leave in peace. I will remember you always and no one can be as great as you!I wished you were still here with me and we could have spent the whole day just chatting, reminding ourselves about all the silly jokes that you told me. I wished I had spent more time with you but that time have shorten.

    I want to remember you like you in the photos. So happy and smiley. That way it would make me motivate and look forward to the upcoming terror of lives.

    ♥ Prelims are over
    Friday, August 14, 2009 -{'Friday, August 14, 2009

    Yeah.. Can celebrate. Ya right. This is just prelims not O level. But still need a break right. So most probably going out tmr to relax. Ok I feel a bit guilty going out just because finish prelims. And Singapore is so boring there is no place fun to go to. Got suggestion?? Anyways, I was thinking that maybe I could just sit at home do nothing. But then later my mum will nag here and there. totally no peace. At laptop wrong. Studying wrong. Everything wrong. Haiz... what to do parent (not parents).....

    And erm... long time I have not update on my cat, May. Well she's doing well. Now she moved back to my room to sleep. And great her fur are making me sick and my whole table are full of it even on my homeworks. And 100% not safe to put my food on that table. She seemed so cute. Everytime I see her sleep which is like every hour till night time. She always dream of things I dont know what Im not a cat but anyway, she is just so cute. She is the most trusted person to share everything cause she cant tell others. Haha. Ok im bad. Ya she is fine but keeps on vomitting on my desk and floor every morning, I think cause my brother gave her the wet food instead of biscuit...

    Now I just have to be more cautious of my whereabouts to be safe. but I rather stay at home or school and not go out anywhere. Anyway the weather is killing me. Im burning. What are they gonna do about the global warming. I dont see any effort. I wish I could do my part. But how?? I dont want those like small parts switching the electricity when not using. I want play a big part in helping to save the environment.

    ♥ Just watch finished few days ago
    Thursday, August 13, 2009 -{'Thursday, August 13, 2009
    The show was so romantic. At last it was an happy ending. The guy very stupid after he lost the baby then he realised he love the girl. Anyway they are fated to love each other. No matter where they are they will always bump each other. Is this what they call fate?? Maybe....

    They dance so nice. I wished we have prom night. It would be so great to commemorate our last year in this school. Wow the guy seem so perfect but he is not but ya who is perfect in this world anyway.

    Haiz... All I think about is love nowadays, I think cause of my friends' influence. Haha. What to do as long they are happy I am too. Omg they two so romantic...Totally gonna watch the show again. Fated to love you. Ya fate... I wish that happen to me too. Haha just kidding.

    ♥ Goals
    Wednesday, August 12, 2009 -{'Wednesday, August 12, 2009

    wow. Just looking at the word scares me. I have no motivationg at all to study until O level. my mother tounge results are also coming out soon. And I screw up my prelims. Thought I could do well and get the scholarship. Haiz people just don't understand what Im going through at all. Its not the same as others. I don't have the support of my family, the knowledge to move up further and the discipline to keep myself well motivated.

    I surf through all the channels recently, they are like totally against me. It was all about goals, goal in career, in losing weight and also goals in studies. Why??? I used to have my goal but I think I would never reach it no matter how hard I try. And my goal also is not supported by my dad and my uncles and aunt. What they expect. I love animals and I want to help them. Haiz...just because I need to touch dogs they are against it...

    Prelim,prelim just thinking about it made me mad. Anyway there is just lack of motivation, no one is motivated enough to do well including the class. What should we do?? What is there to do to make us more motivated?

    How about me?? I am not like some people who can just let it go and happy go lucky. Im not. I will keep asking why. I want regain my confidence, but I dont know how. Seriously advice doesnt help at all. I need to do something. Something that I love to do and never regret. But how?? That is the question left to be answered.

    Maybe if there was one and only, I could somehow reduce my burden. But is it fate?? What is fate anyway? Was I fated to meet someone like him. but what if.. I don't know... What if it will just break my heart. Maybe he could help maybe he knows what I am going through. I need that someone who can just listen to me and not get bored. Just to be there and listen. But what do I take him for if I am like that?? I wish there was a Cun Xi around and I am Chen Xin Yi.

    ♥ being stalk
    Wednesday, August 5, 2009 -{'Wednesday, August 05, 2009
    Omg. I cannot believe that my nightmare is coming back. He is back. Hopes he don't find me here. Singapore is sosmall he might just come here and find me. I am scared. Luckily got my guy friend to protect me. But 1 against many??? Confirm cant win. So now I am totally getting rid of my account details. Like where I live, my school. I just hopes he dont bug me. I dont want anyone to get hurt. Damn, I so stupid to give my phone details. I wish he just leave it in the past. I mean we were like 7 years old back then?? What is the use chasing me now. It has been like 9 years past, forget it. I have move on. Just don't hurt my friends. Especially him. I am in luck since my guy friend will also protect him. But then he didn't know his name. That is a relief.

    Anyway, if he doesn't ask me by the O level results next year, well I think I should just give up. No point of waiting for someone who doesnt feel the same way. Anyway he deserves better.

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    brownies
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    and my never ending list

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    Get 5 points for 'N'level!
    Get 7 points for '0' level
    Go Queenlands University
    Be a science and math prodigy.wait long long
    Be a member of MENSA
    Get a AIR CAR
    Get driving license first

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    Grow until 1.68m
    Spend more time with classmates
    Go sentosa together
    Go out with Su mui and keep my promises to her

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    Start family
    Have a wonderful career
    Earn alot of $$$!!

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    Be a good listener
    Adopt a positive apporoach
    Get on good terms with everyone

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