Now I am hearing countless of advice not to stress myself from her, but wasn't she the one that wanted me to be clever; to be at the very top. How can I possibly could if she don't give me the opportunity to do what I need. I am not gifted, that I know. So, I am trying my best to be who she wants me to be. To be able to do that. I have to study. Keep on studying. I cant stop. I don't get it, either way she still not satisfy. I am trying my best to please her, to please myself. but she keep changing her mind. I cannot be like him. Cause I am not him. He can play all day but still ace all his exams. But I am stupid, I admitted. But still I put a lot of effort, does she not see that? I may look vulnerable but inside I am made up of concrete. Pretty much I will just go crazy over all this studying. So??? What have I got to lose??? Nothing thats what...



Will I ever be good enough for you??
I guess not...


If I really dont make it through all this, I will say that I GIVE UP. That is IF...