Yes life is life. No matter what, we go thorough life one way or another. Pretty much the silence would die down, it just takes time. I just need time trying to absorb things thoroughly. My focus is going off, too much things to concentrate on. Dont know which one first. But like you always said, breathe deep and smile. I am just so you know. It is just on the outside, I dont looked so bubbly as before. Sorry for that too. Its not that I dont want to, its just hard. But for your info, it is not your fault. None of it were, so dont think you were to be blame for it. It was mine. Stupid me again. Sorry for the embarrassing situation I have put you in.

Ok today pretty much I breakdown, I dont know for which ever reason that is. I just could not take it. I just could not stay in the class and really needed some fresh air. Luckily my teacher did not come to take attendant today or else she would already see me in this state. Anyway, the guys keep bugging me with this guy Din, I just wished they stop. I have gone through enough. I dont want it to accumulate anymore. I just wished they understand, my life is already hard enough not having my best guy friend to be there pushing me forward. Haiz...

So stop blaming yourself or I will feel more stress about it. Ya I admit it does feel awkward but just so you know we would NEVER just be acquitance we will always be close friends though there is still silence going on.