Nearly a month of persuasion led to nothing but a waste of time. It was already hard enough that I took the effort to tell my parents the course I wanted will lead to a better future. A course of my dream and a lifetime of happiness. Spend half a day, everyday to calculate my chances in the course until the day before the result i already knew that chance was long gone. I would have expected it coming but I didnt know it would be another heartbreak and another frustration... I didnt have the mood to tell anyone about it. But seems like all are so excited and busybody to know each other results. What can I say, SINGAPOREANS.

When I saw that I was promoted to the course, I just threw my phone at the wall and just hope it was just a dream/ a nightmare. Life was already hard now with my loved one getting cancer, my brother going off and my life which seem like it cannot get any better. Was this a test?? If it was its just really testing my patience and attitude towards it. But so what if it is, at least give me some kind of happiness not regret and anger.

Many were like me today, not getting the course they wanted and even given shocking news. Life is so unpredictable. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. But why cant it always be good. Why cant the outcome make everyone satisfied? This question was long inside my head.

Whatever the case, screw you guys lar!! Those clever ones can get JC. GO AR!! STOP STEALING OUR PLACES!!!
PFFT

I had been in facebook lately and I could tell that no one is getting over their results. It was on daily basics people typing on how they regret and could do better, praying hard to be able to get into their courses because they know their chances are very slim. Some even wrote philosphy stuffs everyday just so that people would feel better of themselves. Well, I guess there is really nothing we could do now. I just wished that people would understand those who did average or worse just have not got over it and just listen. They need listening ear and not the other way around. Well for me, I am over it I guess but it was not easy to do because life is hard, at times it suck. Everyone knows that. All we could do now is make wise decision and wait till 27 January and maybe the luck will change.

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

For example this quote. Man there was alot of comments on this quote in fb. Erm, first thing that got me thinking. "giving up" and "held on so long in the first place" I just think seriously??. Because I need to express what I feel about it, We want to give up because what we held on for so long just not worth holding it anymore. We once thought that maybe after O level we would all €njoy and live life to the fullest. Everything was going smoothly until the results were out. People were shocked, disappointed, and regret. For those who did great for O thats good for you. Erm... I guess ever since that day, things all change huh. People who so longing want to be a doctor, fashion designer, teacher or accountant just vanished. People goals and dreams were destroyed, making decisions became hard. We all lost our path ever since that day. Now we are like lost lambs who have no clue on where we are heading to.

Yes people say there are options, dont give up. Yes thats true. We have more to look forward to. But the thing is we have to do it the hard way. Either going the long route or, doing the things we dont want to do because we had no other choices because we did not want to give up on the dreams we had held for so long. Well from what I see now, dreams are meant to be given up, the best thing I guess just go for something else if its possible. Something else that you LOVE. Because its gonna be part of you for the rest of your life.

Blah,blah,blah. I keep on going with the quote. I think it was enough already. Well I guess we are all aging up to be young adults. And its time that we make tough decisions. I guess the word "adult" is a scary word for me. For all my life I have enjoy people taking care of me, giving attention and make me feel safe. Now it was time to get out of this barrier and go all out. Life I admit: Suck. Hey maybe thats why we dont live forever ya. Its because we dont enjoy it. Well the only way I say that we could enjoy it is, dont let this setback upset you, give up on things that you could and persue something better in life, enjoy and know that for all these years in your life, there are pretty much something special that came out of all this misery: Friendship, Independent, Love.

So hey enjoy while it lasts cause we only live once right?